6217) I keep telling myself and my friends I’m alright and that they’ve got nothing to worry about, but inside I know I’m not. It’s getting worse and worse and I can’t stop it. I need someone, I’m just too scared to admit I have an ED.

Germany, here I come!

A lot of people would never understand why and how I travel so much to see room94. Yet again I am planning to go to another concert, this time in Cologne - Germany in June. Fourteen shows in four different countries in four and a half year. Much more to follow, that’s for sure! :)

Also I am getting my ROOM 94 related tattoo in the first week of May. I never thought I would be able to show them only a month later.. <3

recoveryaffirmations:

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recoveryaffirmations:

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I don’t wanna be afraid, I wanna wake up feeling beautiful today.
And know that I’m okay, ‘cause everyone’s perfect in unusual ways.
So you see, I just wanna believe in me.

These four guys mean more to me than they will ever know.I am so happy and proud of how far they&#8217;ve come already, and I&#8217;m so thankful for everything they&#8217;ve said to me. So thankful for making me smile by just being there, playing a great show, making good music, a lovely message online, the times we talk, Kieran saying &#8216;ik hou van jou&#8217; every time I see him, or the hugs from all of them. Basically everything. &lt;3
Thank you deanlemon, kieranlemon, officialkittanton and Sean. Thank you so fucking much. x

These four guys mean more to me than they will ever know.
I am so happy and proud of how far they’ve come already, and 
I’m so thankful for everything they’ve said to me. So thankful for making me smile by just being there, playing a great show, making good music, a lovely message online, the times we talk, Kieran saying ‘ik hou van jou’ every time I see him, or the hugs from all of them. Basically everything. <3

Thank you deanlemon, kieranlemon, officialkittanton and Sean. Thank you so fucking much. x

"There are days where i feel more like living, and there are days where i don’t. I think part of recovery is to learn to accept that both exist. That they are going to be days where you want to hide forever, and others where you want to hug the sun and dance along with the stars. Both are okay."

Introduction | Hello Tumblr.

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About six months ago I made the decision to delete all of my posts on this Tumblr account and move on to my personal Tumblr. It was easier to talk on there until a few of my close friends decided to follow me. I started to bottle up my feelings and not telling anyone how I really felt. I missed that little space on the internet where I can be myself, but without my name mentioned somewhere. The only way people can find out who I am is checking out this page where I’ll post pictures in the future.

So, welcome on my Tumblr. I’m called 'Illpushrewind' over here, named after a song from my favourite band - room94. Go follow them, because this band is amazing and the guys are truly amazing people.

I am a girl who is trying to find her way to a happy life. There are some rocks on the road I need to move first. Some are quite heavy, like my “troubles with eating” and anxiety, but I’m working hard to put these two to the side of the road so I can move on. This Tumblr shows my journey.

Thank you for reading. x